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Year #9 at the Telluride Horror Show! This year, there was no traumatizing child injury, so I had a much more typical experience.

Obligatory Hike

Over the years, the Horror Show has experienced the many seasons of Telluride in October. We have seen roasting sun, crisp fall air, and heavy snow. This year, we got a lot of rain. Potentially my least favorite.

Considering the mud the weather created, we kept the hike simple. Mostly, a stroll through Telluride to the Bridal Veil Falls trailhead. We started up the road; however, time and my confusing body truncated the hike.

But the views were gorgeous, and Telluride was in full (soggy) autumnal splendor.

The Movies

Whatever the hike did to my body (I thought altitude sickness once again but now have doubts), it did limit me for the weekend. I didn’t feel up to my normal wandering and marathoning. As such, I stuck pretty close to one venue. This did, however, help me watch WAY MORE movies than last year!

Here is the rundown of my viewing and my ratings:

  • Dust Bunny 💀💀💀💀💀 A big budget, fantastical production. Basically, an R-rated kids movie. This film is hysterical and heartwarming (and honestly should not be rated R). Plus, the sets and visuals are dazzling. I cannot wait to show my children.
  • The Creep Tapes 💀💀💀💀💀 I love this franchise. The new episodes are hysterical. What I have seen of season 2 is even better than season 1.
  • It Ends 💀💀💀💀 I was underwhelmed until this movie was explained to me. It seemed so slow and vague and repetitive. However, once I viewed it through the proposed lens, it’s brilliant. I will need to watch it again knowing what I know now so it can break my heart.
  • Good Boy 💀💀💀💀 Such a clever concept with the dog. Slow but beautifully shot. Considering what happened to my family last year, I had all the feelings during the introduction. And Indy, the dog, is a very effective empathetic tool. The pace could be tightened, but I really enjoyed it.
  • The Vile 💀💀💀💀 Creepy and emotional. The story drew me in, the plight of a wife and mother when her husband unexpectedly brings home a second wife and things go so very wrong. It needed more horror, but the story is enough.
  • We Bury the Dead 💀💀💀 A very unique zombie story. The first half is fantastic; then it kind of loses its way. It has a great premise and is so creative, but it feels like they didn’t know how to wrap it up so did so too cleanly.
  • Dolly 💀💀💀 American 70s homage horror in the woods of Tennessee. The special FX in this are wild. This is very much a punch-in-the-face, make-you-uncomfortable horror; however, the story still manages to sag in the middle. Somehow, a 76-minute movie feels long.
  • Honey Bunch 💀💀 Bizarre. I didn’t hate it, but it might need a second watch to make me like it. The soundtrack, in particular, is very peculiar. I think the dynamic between the main couple is odd, and that is reflected in the rest of the movie.
  • Shelby Oaks 💀💀 This one had a lot of hype, but I was disappointed. It is like two movies shoved together, and only the first one is good. There is a threshold of how much “dumb white girl” shit I can buy, and this one far exceeded my tolerance.
  • Deathgasm 2 💀 I saw Deathgasm at Stanley Film Fest years ago, but the sequel is terrible. I need my repeated penile trauma to have a purpose in the story.

Overall, a solid year and lineup. I can’t remember much of last year, beyond my worry for my child, but I do feel like this year was better for more than just that. The schedule allowed for breathing room between showings, which also helped with line management and gave the non-movie events some space. Though there were an unfortunate number of single screenings of films, and one of my favorite parts is deciding what to see Sunday based on chatter.

The Horror Show continues to grow and, with that, does come growing pains. The lineup was released later. Less celebrities and directors attended to give Q&A after the features. Assholes found their way into the audiences and lines to misbehave. It happens as things grow and change.

All told, it was a fantastic weekend, and I can’t wait to go back for year #10.

Christina Bergling

https://linktr.ee/chrstnabergling

Like my writing? Check out my books!

  • Red Walls – When Talia’s parents go after the monsters who hurt her, they never expected real monsters.
  • Followers – You never know who is on the other side of the screen. Followers is a mystery and thriller that blends women’s fiction with horror.
  • The Rest Will Come – Online dating would drive anyone to murder, especially Emma.
  • Savages – Two survivors search the ruins for the last strain of humanity. Until the discovery of a baby changes everything.
  • The Waning – Locked in a cage, Beatrix must survive to escape or be broken completely.
  • Screechers – Mutant monsters and humans collide in the apocalyptic fallout of a burned world. Co-authored with Kevin J. Kennedy.
  • Horror Anthologies

I have exciting news. Some of my favorite news as an author. I HAVE A NEW BOOK UNDER CONTRACT!

My new novel, Savage Island, will be released by Graveside Press 🎉

Savage Island is a direct sequel to Savages, picking up where that book left off. Savages is my first (and favorite) novel. I was often asked if I was going to ever write a sequel to Savages, but I always said no. I wanted to leave the story on the bittersweet open note.

However, inspiration turned me into a liar because Savage Island hit me like a ton of bricks. I tumbled back into that world just as easily as I had the first time. I love this story and these characters.

I can’t wait to show you what’s next for Parker and Marcus at the end of the world.

Christina Bergling

https://linktr.ee/chrstnabergling

Like my writing? Check out my books!

  • Red Walls – When Talia’s parents go after the monsters who hurt her, they never expected real monsters.
  • Followers – You never know who is on the other side of the screen. Followers is a mystery and thriller that blends women’s fiction with horror.
  • The Rest Will Come – Online dating would drive anyone to murder, especially Emma.
  • Savages – Two survivors search the ruins for the last strain of humanity. Until the discovery of a baby changes everything.
  • The Waning – Locked in a cage, Beatrix must survive to escape or be broken completely.
  • Screechers – Mutant monsters and humans collide in the apocalyptic fallout of a burned world. Co-authored with Kevin J. Kennedy.
  • Horror Anthologies

October is coming! 🎃STARTS WEDNESDAY🎃

My horror-loving friends, it is time 👻 Please join me in playing my annual #31DaysofHorror bingo! This game is one of my favorite things on the internet all year. And let’s face it, it’s hard to find stuff to love on the internet lately.

Simple rules:

  1. Each day in October watch a horror movie.
  2. For each horror movie, mark a tombstone on the bingo board.
  3. Post your progress and challenge others.
  4. Tag me to be entered to win.

1 movie a day, 1 tombstone per movie.

First to blackout “wins”. While there is no official winning (and the rules are more like guidelines), this year, I will raffle off a RED WALLS gift box for everyone who plays. Make sure to tag me so I see it and can enter you in!

Christina Bergling

https://linktr.ee/chrstnabergling

Like my writing? Check out my books!

  • Red Walls – When Talia’s parents go after the monsters who hurt her, they never expected real monsters.
  • Followers – You never know who is on the other side of the screen. Followers is a mystery and thriller that blends women’s fiction with horror.
  • The Rest Will Come – Online dating would drive anyone to murder, especially Emma.
  • Savages – Two survivors search the ruins for the last strain of humanity. Until the discovery of a baby changes everything.
  • The Waning – Locked in a cage, Beatrix must survive to escape or be broken completely.
  • Screechers – Mutant monsters and humans collide in the apocalyptic fallout of a burned world. Co-authored with Kevin J. Kennedy.
  • Horror Anthologies

Here comes spooky season! 👻 And it may be the only life raft I have from debilitating depression right now.

Summer sprinted to an end, landing us in September. For me, spooky season starts with Colorado Festival of Horror (CoFoH). Horror may be year-round for me, but the CoFoH weekend of horror movies, celebrities, and art sets the tone for the impending October and Halloween surge.

This year’s festival was BUSY for me. My schedule was stacked. I volunteered all three days, was on four panels, and had a signing block in the dealer’s room. But I still managed to find time for the costume contest, karaoke, a screening, and a couple of other panels.

This year’s theme was monsters, and the big draw was the colonial marines from Aliens. When I was volunteering, I worked at Michael Beihn’s table. Though, honestly, my husband did all the work, and I made appearances briefly to snap pictures for the fans.

Running around to panels kept me pretty engaged.

Enter the HeTerrorTopia (part I and II): What is a heterotopia? you ask. I asked the same thing preparing for these panels! In part one, we explained the concept of a heterotopia (in very short: a world within a world) and provided examples in the horror genre. I chose Stephen King because he may very well be the king of heterotopias. Then, in part two, we used the concept to create our own heterotopia as an interactive group. We ended up selecting a quarantine wing of a hospital during pandemic. The session ended up drifting into group therapy and trauma dumping about COVID, but clearly, we all needed it. I was thrilled that people got the concept (faster than I did) and to see so much participation in the workshop.

Feminism in Horror: From femme fatales to final girls, this panel covered the good, the bad, and the future of feminism in horror. We discussed how feminism means more than female representation and concentrated on creating authentic, nuanced characters of every representation. As an author constantly labeled as “pink horror” or “girl horror”, it’s nice to talk about what that really means.

Monster Mash: This panel started by defining what a monster is in horror then examining what makes a compelling monster. However, after 10pm on day two of the con, things rapidly descended in the best way. We ended up playing rounds of Monster Smash or Pass to uproarious laughter. This was probably the most fun I’ve had on any panel. Obviously, we need a full, focused Monster Smash or Pass panel next year.

The largest development for me, as an author, was having a signing at The Slab table in the Death Dealer’s Room. After Stephen Graham Jones, no less. It was thrilling to see my name all over the program and promo material.

While I brought multiple books, my focus was obviously on the latest: Red Walls. And Red Walls SOLD. This weekend was probably the most successful I’ve seen for book sales. Between my signing table and the Horror Writers Association booth, I sold half my last order of copies!

Everyone says it’s the cover, and I can’t argue with them. I’m trying to figure out how to turn it into my next tattoo.

So, the weekend was very successful for me as an author and very fun and fulfilling as a horror fan. It has me excited for Telluride Horror Show next month and Creepaway Camp next summer. I will take all the distraction I can get!

Christina Bergling

https://linktr.ee/chrstnabergling

Like my writing? Check out my books!

  • Red Walls – When Talia’s parents go after the monsters who hurt her, they never expected real monsters.
  • Followers – You never know who is on the other side of the screen. Followers is a mystery and thriller that blends women’s fiction with horror.
  • The Rest Will Come – Online dating would drive anyone to murder, especially Emma.
  • Savages – Two survivors search the ruins for the last strain of humanity. Until the discovery of a baby changes everything.
  • The Waning – Locked in a cage, Beatrix must survive to escape or be broken completely.
  • Screechers – Mutant monsters and humans collide in the apocalyptic fallout of a burned world. Co-authored with Kevin J. Kennedy.
  • Horror Anthologies

I extroverted HARD last weekend, put myself out there (literally) at events across Colorado. Between dance performances and book events, there was no shortage of artistic expression for me.

I started with the Colorado State Fair in Pueblo. I have performed at the fair with a dance collective for a few years now, usually with my duet partner. Unfortunately, my partner is recovering from surgery, so it was a solo endeavor this year.

Despite later internet backlash (don’t get me started), the show itself was a delight. My children so rarely get to see my perform (as they are not old enough for bars and clubs), and since they both helped me with my KPOP Demon Hunters dance, I was thrilled for them to see it onstage.

Then, I hit an author milestone: a Barnes & Noble book signing. Red Walls is the second of my books to be carried by Barnes & Noble, but Followers came out on the heels of the pandemic, so I never did in-person events for it.

I know Barnes & Noble is one of many book retailers out there. Yet, somehow, it felt validating, like a rite of passage in my author journey. Traffic was relatively light while my table was up, and I don’t know that I found my target audience in Boulder, but I talked to people and sold a few copies. So I call it a success!

On the heels of the signing, I sprinted back from Boulder to Colorado Springs to perform again in the annual Inappropriate Recital. My children helped with my makeup so I could present “My Idol” once again.

I explained my love of KPOP Demon Hunters in my last post. Finding a metal version of my (maybe) favorite song on the soundtrack then collaborating with my children on look and choreography made it all the more fun.

I also got to perform with a new troupe in a fusion of styles, neither of which I am very fluent with. So it presented a fun challenge.

Every time I take a break from the stage or deprioritize performing, I miss it. I guess I can’t quit it.

But whew, that was a lot of putting myself out there (and driving) in a 48 hour period. I go through a rollercoaster of emotions with these sorts of activities. The excitement and anxiety of preparation, the thrill of connection and expression (and positive reception), the drop of the thing finally being over. Call it exercise for the upcoming Colorado Festival of Horror weekend!

I have a stacked schedule of panels and signing and volunteering at CoFoH this year, so I better get my stamina up. This autumn was scheduled by a very optimistic, motivated, and employed past me. I’m hoping to skid into the end of the year still sane and intact.

Until then, enjoy a compilation of my performances of “My Idol”:

Christina Bergling

https://linktr.ee/chrstnabergling

Like my writing? Check out my books!

  • Red Walls – When Talia’s parents go after the monsters who hurt her, they never expected real monsters.
  • Followers – You never know who is on the other side of the screen. Followers is a mystery and thriller that blends women’s fiction with horror.
  • The Rest Will Come – Online dating would drive anyone to murder, especially Emma.
  • Savages – Two survivors search the ruins for the last strain of humanity. Until the discovery of a baby changes everything.
  • The Waning – Locked in a cage, Beatrix must survive to escape or be broken completely.
  • Screechers – Mutant monsters and humans collide in the apocalyptic fallout of a burned world. Co-authored with Kevin J. Kennedy.
  • Horror Anthologies

Every book release is different. For Savages, I had a new baby and a toddler. Followers came in the aftermath of COVID. Red Walls, my sixth and newest book, comes at a time of personal turmoil (and honestly, global turmoil but we’ll keep this blog in the microcosm).

The past few months have been an onslaught of traumas and complications. There’s no need to make a laundry list for sympathy. Suffice it to say, it has been enough. The Red Walls release, which I was very excited for after a few years and so much work, landed between tragedy and major stressor. Its joy was nearly eclipsed by the shadows.

I went through all the release motions. The posts, the newsletters, the giveaway. However, I didn’t get to experience and enjoy them as much as I normally would. I would have preferred to give them full attention and indulgence. But survival made demands.

Red Walls is the most beautiful physical copy of all my books, with gorgeous art, an alternate cover on the back, bloody graphics on the pages, and a hardback design. It seriously dazzled me when I finally got to hold it. That elation was a flare in the darkness before being smothered again.

I think Red Walls has also been my most successful release so far. I saw engagement and preorders and post sharing. I was able to secure a good number of ARC reviewers. I saw it out there in the world beyond me. It felt like more of the loft I have always been chasing.

And the reviews… They say to never read your own reviews, but they have been so good. People really like it! And that’s always the dream. More than sales or shares or whatever. The dream is true reader enjoyment. There is no way to gracefully articulate that feeling when a reader really sees your work and it hits with them just as intended. Bliss. Author crack. The dream.

These are all good things. These are AMAZING things. These are things I have been chasing for most of my author career. I just wish my life around me wasn’t drowning out these coveted things.

I want to focus on it; I want to wallow in it. Perhaps the clouds will clear soon enough to shine enough blazing light down to truly focus on it. If nothing else, this release will be memorable. For many reasons.

Christina Bergling

https://linktr.ee/chrstnabergling

Like my writing? Check out my books!

  • Red Walls – When Talia’s parents go after the monsters who hurt her, they never expected real monsters.
  • Followers – You never know who is on the other side of the screen. Followers is a mystery and thriller that blends women’s fiction with horror.
  • The Rest Will Come – Online dating would drive anyone to murder, especially Emma.
  • Savages – Two survivors search the ruins for the last strain of humanity. Until the discovery of a baby changes everything.
  • The Waning – Locked in a cage, Beatrix must survive to escape or be broken completely.
  • Screechers – Mutant monsters and humans collide in the apocalyptic fallout of a burned world. Co-authored with Kevin J. Kennedy.
  • Horror Anthologies

Red Walls may be my sixth book, but this is the first time I’ve commissioned a book trailer to go with one of my books. I have always wanted to, but I lack the skills (and the time).

LJ GrAphix did an excellent job and taking my minimal direction and creating something creepy and engaging. It’s exciting to see my story translated into another medium.

I AM SO READY FOR THIS BOOK TO COME OUT!

Family trauma + vengeance + scary house + MONSTERS

Watch it! Share it! Tell me what you think…

Christina Bergling

https://linktr.ee/chrstnabergling

Like my writing? Check out my books!

  • Red Walls – When Talia’s parents go after the monsters who hurt her, they never expected real monsters.
  • Followers – You never know who is on the other side of the screen. Followers is a mystery and thriller that blends women’s fiction with horror.
  • The Rest Will Come – Online dating would drive anyone to murder, especially Emma.
  • Savages – Two survivors search the ruins for the last strain of humanity. Until the discovery of a baby changes everything.
  • The Waning – Locked in a cage, Beatrix must survive to escape or be broken completely.
  • Screechers – Mutant monsters and humans collide in the apocalyptic fallout of a burned world. Co-authored with Kevin J. Kennedy.
  • Horror Anthologies

Writing has a progression to it. Sometimes, in the best of circumstances. An inspiration becomes an idea. That glimmer is developed into a story. Maybe it gets scaffolded into outline, or maybe it pours out onto the page. A story starts with a draft. Then there are edits and more drafts and more edits and still more drafts and edits. Feedback comes in to polish off the rough edges. Then it is ready for querying and submitting. And if all the steps flow together harmoniously, maybe, just MAYBE, finally it sees publication (which incidentally includes more editing.)

COVID and its aftermath were my season of inspiration and writing. Undoubtedly, the best stages of the entire process. Creation and expression and riding the high of possibilities. And in this particular instance, escapism.

At the end, I had three novels and a bushel of shorts. The yield imprisoned me in over a year of edits (literal hell), followed by months of submitting and querying (hell adjacent depending on the result).

BUT, with all that behind me, I am moving into the next season: RELEASE (another pretty awesome season). The next year or so is going to see my works finally climbing out from the shadows and into the light of the world.

Red Walls

Followers was released in 2021. It has felt so long since I released a book. Four years might not be an eternity, but in publishing (and half of the rest of life), it has felt like it. I am ready to be back at it!

Red Walls is graphic, gory horror with an emotional heart, portraying family trauma as it both unites and almost destroys a family. Plus a scary house! Plus monsters!

I felt like it was time to do a real, full length monster story rather than just shorts. I also have been accused of being soft for horror, so I pulled no punches with the carnage.

Graveside Press is releasing Red Walls on May 9th, 2025, but you can preorder it now.

Horror Shorts

Spliced in with my novel flow, I always manage some short stories. I have at least a couple coming out on the horizon and can only hope more get picked up.

Find “Smolder” in the upcoming Don’t Ask, Ghosts Tell coming from Tundra Swan Press in June 2025.

Find “Break a Leg” in the upcoming Twisted Horrors coming from River Gardner in summer 2025.

Invisible Girls

“Do you ever write things that aren’t horror?” Not until now! Invisible Girls is my first non-horror novel. Dystopian feminist world burning so pretty close but still.

I will officially branch into another genre when Invisible Girls is released by Hybrid Sequence Media in 2026.

I have been waiting so long for this season, reminding myself it would come on the other side of slogging through edits and submissions and rejections. And at this current point in time and history, I need a light to focus on, something that feels good. If nothing else, I want to land on the bedrock of being a creator and putting art out into the world. Fucked up as the world may be.

Christina Bergling

https://linktr.ee/chrstnabergling

Like my writing? Check out my books!

  • Red Walls – When Talia’s parents go after the monsters who hurt her, they never expected real monsters.
  • Followers – You never know who is on the other side of the screen. Followers is a mystery and thriller that blends women’s fiction with horror.
  • The Rest Will Come – Online dating would drive anyone to murder, especially Emma.
  • Savages – Two survivors search the ruins for the last strain of humanity. Until the discovery of a baby changes everything.
  • The Waning – Locked in a cage, Beatrix must survive to escape or be broken completely.
  • Screechers – Mutant monsters and humans collide in the apocalyptic fallout of a burned world. Co-authored with Kevin J. Kennedy.
  • Horror Anthologies

Here we are again. The end of the year. The annual retrospective. It was another challenging year full of fresh hells but also peppered with healing and joy. Perhaps closer to balance than I’ve been in a long time.

Writing

After Followers, I did a lot of producing but not a lot of editing, querying, or publishing. This year, it finally caught up to me. I focused a lot on editing and critique group sessions and made it through my WIP stack (three books) at last! Then I even got around to submitting.

It paid off. Red Walls is under contract with Graveside Press, targeting a 2025 release. Invisible Girls also has a pending contract and potential 2026 release. (Working titles for both, of course).

Unfortunately, Savage Island (Savages #2) has only found rejection so far. The rejection was particularly crushing since Savages is my first and favorite book and the story is very close to my heart. In all naked honesty, it made me want to quit the entire publication pursuit. But I have worked through it and resolved to find Savage Island the right home.

As far as short stories, “Freaks” found a new home in The Horror Collection: Topaz Edition. More rejections on other stories, naturally, but I also had a couple more shorts picked up that will be released in the coming year.

2025 is shaping up to see new work from me out on the pages.

Events

I was quite busy with events this year. From vending to conventions to film festivals, it was horror year round.

I worked several different events, sharing a table with the delightful Mighty Quinn from Wyrd Wanderings. We paired my horror books and razor blade art with old medical texts and Uranium glass from his ghost hunting adventures.

My husband and I had a fantastic time volunteering at Colorado Festival of Horror, and I also spoke on multiple panels over the weekend.

We went to Telluride Horror Show, like every year. Only this year was different as we took our son fresh from the hospital with us.

I did talks and readings and saw a lot of horror movies. I danced and performed.

It was a full year, full of things I love.

Regular Life

Health-wise, this was a year of healing for me. After problems with medication and losing all my hair yet again, I got on a new regime that appears to be working. I have hair again, but more importantly, I am seeing improvement in my labs and symptoms that I have not experienced in years. I feel better. I might even say I feel like myself at times.

We had big traumas this year, but they were easier to navigate being physically stronger and more stable.

Many things were put into perspective for me this year. The most important of which is that, even on the worse day, I have a pretty damn good life. Worth living and worth appreciating.

So, while there are many broken things in the micro and macro-cosms, here we go into the next year.

Christina Bergling

https://linktr.ee/chrstnabergling

Like my writing? Check out my books!

  • Followers – You never know who is on the other side of the screen. Followers is a mystery and thriller that blends women’s fiction with horror.
  • The Rest Will Come – Online dating would drive anyone to murder, especially Emma.
  • Savages – Two survivors search the ruins for the last strain of humanity. Until the discovery of a baby changes everything.
  • The Waning – Locked in a cage, Beatrix must survive to escape or be broken completely.
  • Screechers – Mutant monsters and humans collide in the apocalyptic fallout of a burned world. Co-authored with Kevin J. Kennedy.
  • Horror Anthologies

It has been a long time since I produced a horror short for this blog. The following short hit me like a train in November. Obviously, it is a direct result of my trauma from my son being bit in the face by our dog the month before. So, this season, I give to you a glimpse at one of my demons.


The bubbling Christmas music sounded out of place against the rolling chatter and peals of laughter filling the house. The college party throbbed around me. I perched on an uncomfortable plastic chair by the coffee table, surrounded by strangers in ugly sweaters, crowded by a sloppily decorated tree.

I poured another drink down my throat to sedate my nerves.

I glanced around the circle of the gift exchange. The boy across from me balanced the small, wrapped box on his fingertips, like he didn’t know how to hold it. The drunk sorority girl beside him on the battered couch swayed into him.

“It’s just a present,” she said over his shoulder. Her red velvet skirt was too short for winter. She knocked her bare thigh against him, melting snow slicking from her tall, black boots.

He looked down to the box, awkward in his grip, then suddenly right at me. I stifled a gasp. His eyes were startling, some kind of hazel reflecting the Christmas lights hung around the room. I almost flinched, but for an instant, he looked childlike, lost. Something about the connection soothed me, made me forget that I knew no one at this party.

“My family doesn’t do Christmas gifts,” he said to the blonde, offering the green box with shining red bow back to her. “I didn’t bring one for the exchange.”

“But it’s a Christmas party.” Her intoxication elongated her words. She butted her leg against him again, but he did not lean into the touch. She pushed against the gift, pouting. “Everyone gets a present.”

“Don’t worry, Tyler,” the plaid-clad guy in the armchair said from the end of the coffee table. “I always keep a couple spares for the lame-asses who forget their gift.” Popping up from the chair, he vaulted over the coffee table.

Plaid grinned as he retrieved a larger box covered in snowman paper and pushed it across the table. Tyler watched the present slide to a stop before Blondie snatched it up. I looked at the red gift bag dangling from my fingers, glittered paper stabbing up at me.

“Why doesn’t your family do Christmas gifts?” My question startled me, the alcohol loosening my tongue, blurring my thoughts into clumsy speech.

I winced before looking to him, flush burning through my cheeks. What business was it of mine why his family didn’t celebrate Christmas? Maybe he wasn’t Christian. Embarrassment pounded in my veins enough to dilute the alcohol, but he smiled at me, soft and gentle, a glint in his striking eyes.

“I don’t know if it’s a very festive story.” He dropped his eyes, tilted his head, but his resistance felt hollow. He passed the present between his hands, waiting. “Kind of a buzzkill.”

“No, tell us!” Blondie straightened on the cushion, gripping his bicep.

He didn’t look at her. He looked at me. I stopped breathing and hurried my plastic cup to my lips. His mouth quirked.

“Well,” he began. “If you insist.” He planted his present in front of him on the table and eased back on the cushion to address the circle. “When I was a kid, I got bit in the face by a dog. And it was bad, real bad.”

Blondie gasped beside him, pressing her painted fingernails to her mouth.

Tyler turned his face, exposing his cheek. “Part of my cheek was ripped down. I was hospitalized for over a week, had over 120 stitches. It got infected,” he said. He traced a faint line down his cheek and through the break in the stubble along his jaw. Once he pointed it out, the healed skin winked white in the light.

“You can barely tell.” My thoughts spilled out again.

He smiled fast, running his hand over the faint scars. “My parents could afford good doctors. Young skin heals well,” he dismissed. “And my mom made sure I kept out of the sun and used every cream and treatment they recommended.”

“Did it happen on Christmas?” Plaid interrupted, leaning forward on his elbows, clutching his beer.

The circle contracted around Tyler, the festive chaos around us fading into the background.

“No, no.” Tyler waved the question away. “This happened before Christmas. I was pretty healed by Christmas, out of the hospital, stitches out. We were getting back to normal, except my mom.” He paused a moment, wet his lips. “My mom was messed up about it. It was her dog who bit me. Her rescue. And she loved that dog. Sometimes, I worried that she loved him more than me.” A pained smile twisted his face. “But when we got home from the hospital, she put him down herself. Didn’t even take off her shoes, just took him straight out back, and he was gone. Never shed a tear in front of me.”

The entire circle fell silent. All gifts had been abandoned to the table or the floor around us. The party had ceased to exist as we all leaned in for his words.

Tyler ran his palms down his thighs to his knees, exhaling before resuming.

“So Christmas came around. Our family was big into Christmas, made a thing of it. My parents had this big party every year with their siblings and close friends. The main part was this asshole gift exchange. Everyone got a name and bought that person a joke gift. But not like white elephant.” He poked at the box in front of him. “Like well thought out, personal, and often kind of mean.” He chuckled to himself, smiling at the present. “It was only the adults, and we kids were always so jealous. We wanted to buy asshole gifts too, but our parents said we weren’t ready.”

“Asshole gifts?” Blondie asked, cocking her head like a puppy.

“Like, how mean?” Plaid asked.

“It was about being funny,” Tyler said. “But you had to have thick skin. Like, if you hated something, you were getting that for Christmas. If you did something stupid, you were getting that for Christmas. My aunt fell on the ice one year and got a concussion; my dad bought her ice skates and a helmet.”

The table giggled uncomfortably, unsure where the story was going, not knowing if it was inappropriate to laugh. A smile broke my face, but I took a drink to disguise it, feeling the liquor hum through me.

“So, the Christmas after the bite,” Tyler resumed, “my uncle decided to include me in the exchange. He got me this, like, Phantom of the Opera type mask that covered all my scars, and he painted it to look like a werewolf. Honestly, it was kind of badass.” He smirked, shrugged.

Blondie placed her hand on his forearm, but he didn’t meet her wide, blinking eyes.

“So, your mom was pissed about the mask?” Plaid eased to the edge of the armchair, legs bouncing.

Tyler exhaled in a whistle. “She was so upset.” His tone lowered with his eyes, back to the gift in front of him. “I wanted to be involved so bad. I was the only kid. Even if the mask hurt my feelings, I felt special to get it. I tried to tell her it was fine. I told her it was funny and I loved the mask. But she was livid.” He took a deep breath and let it out slow. “Then my dad made it worse. He told her to calm down.”

We took a collective gasp.

“Oh no,” Blondie said.

He looked directly at me again, and that boyish demeanor surfaced. A boy healing back together after the gnashing teeth of a dog. A child listening to his parents fight. Then it receded behind how handsome he was. My stomach flipped.

“So, what happened?” Plaid encouraged the words with his hands.

“She did not calm down.” Tyler grinned sourly at the present. “She left.” He shrugged, shifting on the cushion. “She messaged that she was taking an uber. But—”

His voiced trailed off, and he found me again. As his eyes watered and glittered, it felt like he could see through me. When his eyes caught mine like this, it felt like he was talking only to me. The intimacy of his sharing. Or it was the rum in my egg nog.

He kept staring into me when he continued. “We never saw her again. She never came home, never called, never got any of her things. Just gone.”

My heart sunk with each word until it burrowed in my belly.

“Wait, what?” Plaid shot to his feet, mouth agape.

“Oh my god.” Blondie grabbed her face.

“I’m so sorry,” I said without thinking.

He kept his eyes on me, calm and clear now. “After that mask, we never exchanged another gift.”

Tears pricked the back of my eyes. The urge to hold him overwhelmed me. My arms insisted I clear the table between us, sweep Blondie from the cushion, and comfort this wounded boy. Yet I just gaped at him with the others.

“Holy shit, bro!” Plaid shouted, swiping fast at his cheek. “What a downer. Now, open your damn present.”

***

The cold walk across campus cleared the echo of the party from my ears, but my brain still thrummed from the cups I had nervously drank after the story. And my proximity to Tyler. Looping my arm through his, he held me close to guide me over the icy sidewalks.

His story had dispersed the circle. Blondie took the hint and stopped slapping her thigh against him, turning her attention to Plaid instead. We rushed through opening the awful gifts unceremoniously.

Our gifts now sat purposefully forgotten on the coffee table at the party. I received a set of straws shaped like veiny penises. He never opened his. The crisply wrapped box remained where he placed it during his story. The story that circulated through me faster than the rum.

I tried not to stare at the side of his face, searching for the scars in the dim light, as he brought us to his room. He kept the lights low, half-hiding from me, except for those shining eyes.

Closing the door behind him, he gathered my face in his hands. He ran his thumbs over my unmarred cheeks, banishing the chill from the night. His eyes, green or gold or maybe blue, caught the light from the window. He kissed me, slow, deep, until my knees wobbled.

“I didn’t finish my story,” he said, low and soft against my lips. “At the party.”

I leaned back to take in his face. Something behind him, something in the shadow by the door shifted. Or I thought it did.

“What do you mean?” I murmured, staring over his shoulder.

He guided my face back to his, drew me closer. “I lied before, when I said I never saw my mom again.”

Anger flared in me, betrayal in how much I had trusted his words and how they felt meant for me, and I jerked back again. The shadow behind him moved, took shape. I closed my eyes, blinked hard, tried to force my vision into sobriety and focus. Taking a step back, I bumped into his bed.

“No, no,” he soothed. Stroking his fingers down my face, he pulled me into him. “It was the first Christmas after. It’s how I knew she was gone, how I knew to stop asking questions.”

This beautiful stranger embraced me, his hands foreign on my back. I saw it behind him. The figure hobbled from the darkness, broken and jerking. Eyes like his found the light and gleamed at me from a mangled face. The flesh of the cheek had been ripped, torn away to expose a line of white teeth. Like it had been attacked by a dog.

“She comes back every year,” he breathed into my ear. Then, still holding me close, he turned to greet her. “Hi, Mom.”

Christina Bergling

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