real life

  • 2025 to 2026

    2025 to 2026

    I gave up New Year’s Resolutions a while ago. I was never good at keeping them anyway. At some point, I switched to selecting an intentional word. A goal theme for the year. I have used “healing” and “simplify” in past years. This year, I’m going with reset.

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  • Whirlwind

    Whirlwind

    I extroverted HARD last weekend, put myself out there (literally) at events across Colorado. Between dance performances and book events, there was no shortage of artistic expression for me.

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  • My Own Honmoon

    My Own Honmoon

    If your algorithm overlaps mine at all, KPOP Demon Hunters has taken over the internet. If your children are anything like mine, KPOP Demon Hunters has also taken over your house. It’s on Netflix all the time. The songs are playing in the car. There is choreography in the kitchen. What is unexpected, however, is…

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  • 2024 in Review

    2024 in Review

    Here we are again. The end of the year. The annual retrospective. It was another challenging year full of fresh hells but also peppered with healing and joy.

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  • Horror and Trauma

    Horror and Trauma

    Horror is a genre about trauma. Whether it is the fictional trauma being inflicted on the characters or the zeitgeist of fear it confronts for us. At Colorado Festival of Horror 2024, I participated in two panels on the horror genre and trauma. Both sessions were so compelling and cathartic for me that I needed to…

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  • Where Have I Been?

    Where Have I Been?

    It has been a long time, and this blog is not the only thing I have neglected. My health the past few years unmoored me, but life sprinted on ahead. It feels like we have returned to pre-pandemic pace, but I am not the same person as before. I am broken and hobbling. I have…

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  • My Own Hell

    If I were to manufacture a hell for someone with body dysmorphia and/or an eating disorder, it would be this.

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  • Drowning Inside

    Drowning Inside

    My appearance has always been a source of fixation and distortion, creating a rift between my sense of self and physical vessel. It never looked how I wanted (not that it could with my cracked lens), so I hated it. Now, as my body has literally turned on me and itself, it feels like it…

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  • Surviving 2023

    Surviving 2023

    I would open by commenting on what a rollercoaster of a year 2023 was. However, saying that four years in a row now takes the impact out of the sentiment. 2023 was a lot, but it appears this is just the tone since 2020.

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  • “Hairs” – Reading Body Horror

    I’m back! I have been avoiding the camera since losing my hair. But here I am, reading horror I wrote inspired by said loss. It then, of course, gets so much worse.

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